So, alright. If you had to choose between taking your extremely wet and muddy pants off in your yard or getting the floor muddy from the door to your room and having to clean it later, which would you do?

Apparently mine was the wrong answer.

Ask me to take a picture of any aspect of my life that you're interested in - it can be anything from the house I live in to my favorite shoes. Leave your choice here as a comment, and I will reciprocate by taking the pictures and posting them as an LJ entry reply to your comment.

Jacked it from mah brah, milkchokolate

I've been back on LJ for awhile now, I just haven't posted anything in here. I don't really use it.

But mainly, this is just an out.

I've realized that my tastes have changed over the past year. I started 2007 in full-fanbrat mode over a damn RPS. Vam. I honestly am the little teenage girl that threw a shitfit that their "love" was getting married, and so of course, though that what him and his best friend had was ~*~ TRU LUV ~*~.

Now, I realize how stupid I was. I had a true obsession with him, and through all the therapy and hospitalization I went through, I can now look back on myself and laugh.

I don't think I'll ever let myself back into Vam. All I did was feel like a lie when I was there. Sure, I loved the fandom, but I felt as if I had to lie about who I was to get anywhere because of how wanky it would get. Especially with the older members against the younger.

So here's the truth.

I'm not whatever I said I was. In all honestly, I'm a nearly fifteen year old girl with obvious issues. In fact, to be specific, when I first joined the communities, I think I was actually still thirteen. I'm through with lying about it. I'm a young teenager with the maturity to pass as older on the Internet.

But honestly. I don't think I need to be over eighteen to enjoy what I like. I started reading smut and everything of the sort at about nine. I know the correct terms to use for fanfics. I know when writing gay smut not to have the characters "jam it in". I mean, I go on 4chan and AFF almost daily. Don't feed me that "BUT UR UNDER 18 THAT'S WRONG" bull; I'm not the first or the last to do it.

Now, I'm in what I feel is more relaxed fandoms. PW, MGS, Gravitation, Kingdom Hearts, even the tiny bit of Death Note knowledge I have; I don't feel like I have to be an adult to enjoy the fandom. I mean, for fuck's sake, excluding Metal Gear Solid, everything is marketed for teenagers that I'm into. I'm not afraid of anyone's opinion of me in them because they aren't stuck-up fanbrats like the old things I was into.

Granted, none of you on my f-list are fanbrats, otherwise I wouldn't like you enough to add you. But you get what I'm saying.

So. If I use this journal anymore, it's not going to be as who I "was" before. It's the real person I am, idiot child or not.

tl;dr: I'm not lying about who I am on LJ anymore, a formal goodbye to Vam fandom, FUCK YEAH VIDEO GAME/ANIME FANDOMS. <3